So yesterday morning I came down the stairs holding J (9mos) in my arms. It was pitch-black and I was trying to be quiet so I didnt wake Dh (he sleeps downstairs so he can run really early in the morning, he is training for a marathon). Well C had left his baby dolls on the stairs and I tripped on one and fell about 5 steps. I remember just thinking to lean back so J didnt hit the tile. In doing so I landed in a really funky way. Long story short - I woke up this morning and the bone/joint about an inche below my big toe was bruised, swollen and extremely painful. So I spent a lovely morning at the urgent care. I was xrayed and I am SO thankful its not broken so I dont have to wear a cast. They think its just badly sprained so I have a lovely and very fashionable navy blue, velcro flat-bottommed shoe. But I really dont care how ugly it is because it hurts so much less to walk in it!
Back in January I nearly cut off my finger while cooking (dont clean out your hand-held mixer blade and then turn it on). What is wrong with me!?!?! What is God trying to teach me?
Well a dear friend reminded me what He is trying to teach me and I just dont like it. But I see how its my decision to learn the hard way or the easy way. So whats the big revelation? Humility. My youth pastor's wife when I was in high school told me never to pray for humility. I should have listened ;)
It was extremely humbling to show the Dr. and xray tech my calloused feet in desperate need of some TLC and even more so for them to see the hairy leg attached to it *blush* Guess its been a few days (or maybe a week!) since I shaved.
But more than that, He is showing me that I need help. I dont like to need help (except from dh, as he pointed out LOL). I like to do it all and be super-mom and exhaust myself doing it. But since the end of my pregnancy with Jayna, when I had some chiropractic issues that made it hard to get around, I have found myself in a place where I DO need help from my friends.
Humble pie can be bitter or sweet - it all depends on how we handle it. Right now its bitter, Im mad that I keep getting hurt and falling behind in our home. But I want it to be sweet. I want it to be a sweet time between me and my Jesus. So I will choose to lean on Him and to pray for the grace to handle this humbly, so I can get this lesson over with! :) Although I have a feeling it will be one I learn for a long, long time.